Today was it....
We've been 'all talk' up until this point .....
But not today, there was very little 'talk' today to be honest.....
We've said, we'll leave it all behind and go
Today was our last day in this house
(that it feels like we only just moved into)....
We all said good~bye in our own way
(please don't ask what he is doing,
I just can't explain teenage boys
No Miss G, you can't stay.....
I never want to have to do this again,
or ask my children to do this again.
But I have to say,
that in my lowest moments this past week,
I haven't had to look past my own children,
to see such incredible strength and joy.
They were way beter then this ol'Mom in saying
'Good ~ Bye'
In all honesty,
if I could have known how hard these past 22 months would have been ~
would I have still said 'Yes'
to what we trust and believe
the Lord has placed on our hearts to do?
I'm glad I didn't know then,
what it would have really really felt like to sell everything
and walk away from life and security here.
Would I have obeyed, and in faith said,
"Yes Lord send me"
I don't know.
It's been hard on my heart.
But today as I leave the house for the last time, I am so amazed at God's faithfulness to us. Amazed at my children's hearts, and at their level of trust. So humbled that God has allowed us to be apart of what He is doing over there in China and New Day. I have never felt more small and inadequate then I do this past season. But I am so thankful that He is in the drivers seat.
Tomorrow is a new day.
Joy comes in the Morning.
Oh Roberta! This is so amazing! Isn't God awesome to call us but only see what is coming to the next corner! You are so right - if we could see to the end and all the things we would have to do to get there so many would never say, "Here I Am, Lord, send me!" But when we hold onto His hand, He gently leads us through every corner, around every bend, through every valley, up every mountain! Thank you for including us in your journey - we look so forward to seeing how He will take you onto the next step! You are surely storing up treasures in heaven!ReplyDelete
(HUG) just humbingReplyDelete
Beautiful. My heart cries with yours actually. Saying good-byes like these....wow. But you are setting your hand to the plow...don't look back. Our kids are braver than we are sometimes. Thank God! We love you. Blessings on this next leg of your journey.ReplyDelete
Many Prayers and well wishes as your family embarks on this new journey!ReplyDelete
I totally understand and have asked myself that same question; "If I'd known, would I have said yes?" Goodbye dear Roberta and your beautiful family!! xoReplyDelete
"Faith is the daring of the soul to go farther then it can see"ReplyDelete
I have been thinking of you all week. I am praying now. I can't imagine these last days at home. The hopes, the fears, the doubts, the plans to go into all the world. Allow yourselves o grieve these real losses. Continue to stay pressed into Him because He renews hope daily! With hope comes joy and expectation for the journey! I will be following and praying. Stay connected and we will encourage you!! We always have a room available for visitors in our home, so if at anytime any one of you need a respite, please come!ReplyDelete
Praying for your family as you begin this new journey!! God bless you as you step out in faith to do His will to the best of your understanding of it. Oh don't we wish we had a blue print!! Just TELL us what it is you want us to do Lord. :) Col 1: 9-14 ((((HUGS))))ReplyDelete
Prayers and thoughts for you all!ReplyDelete