I like to think that I'm a pretty Happy Go Lucky kind of guy.
I mean, I like to think of myself as a "cup 1/2 full" kind of guy (unless you are drinking from it, then it is 1/2 empty).
See the good in everyone.
Look on the bright side of things.
Find the silver lining in the cloud.
You know, all that kind of good stuff.
Don't get me wrong, I have my bad days like everyone... okay, well, maybe not EVERYONE. I have one friend Rhonda, who I don't think EVER has a bad day. Drives me NUTS! I just wanna scream... Its like, "C'mon! Can't you just have 1 bad day?". *siiigh* Oh, and my good friend Bobby - always happy! Always. Crazy. And everything works out for him too! He is one of those guys that if his car broke down on him on the way to Church, a new Lexus would fall from the heavens with the keys in the ignition and Megan Fox in the passenger seat! Goodness that guy bugs me too! You know what! They ALL drive me nuts! Happy people! BAH!!!
Where was I? Oh right... I'm Happy and Thankful!
Sometimes it can be really hard to be Thankful... honestly, I think sometimes we have to be CRAZY to be Thankful!
Me: *looking at the bank account* Oh snap.
Bad Me: You know, this whole "adoption" thing is kinda expensive. Like... really freakishly expensive.
Me: Yea, I know.
Bad Me: Dosn't that tick you OFF!
Me: Yea, kinda.
Bad Me: Kinda?! There are 147 MILLION orphans in the world - all you want to do is help 1, and someone wants to charge you thousands of dollars!
Me: Hey, you know what, that is crazy!
Bad Me: Thats right! Its CRAZY!
Me: They shouldn't do that! Thats CRAZY! Stupid regulations!
Good Me: Maybe you should be thankful instead of getting all upset.
Me: What? Be thankful for what?! That this is going to cost us a LOT of money, so I have to work TONNES(1) of overtime to pay for it all?!
Good Me: You could be thankful that you HAVE a job where you can work the over time to help pay for the adoption. Or you could just be thankful that you have a job at all.
Me: Okay, fine. I'm thankful that I have a job. But I'm still upset that this is SO HARD to adopt when these children need homes.
Good Me: Why don't you be thankful that you are adopting a beautiful child into your family, and not focus on the paper work.
Me: Okay... fine. So I'm thankful that I've got a job. I'm thankful that I am able to adopt a child. But, but... do you remember what the last adoption was like! I mean, you weren't the one getting yelled at in Mandarin every day!
Good Me: Why don't you just be thankful that your beautiful daughter will even talk to you.
Me: Grrrrr... fine. I'll be thankful for the job, for being able to pay for the adoption, for adding to the family, even for my daughter yelling at me.
Good Me: See! Don't you feel better now.
Me: You know what... no. This is still hard! And I haven't even gotten into the all the other krump(2) we've gotta work though for our "Special Needs" now.
Good Me: I know. Hey, you should ask God how hard adoption was for him. But there are some other things you can be thankful for.
Me: Oh yea, like what?
Good Me: Well, women with poor taste in men. With-out that, you would still be a bachelor!
Me: You know, for a "good conscience", sometimes you can be really mean.
Good Me: And you should be...
Me: Thankful for that too?
Good Me: My work here is done.
There are always two choices when life throws something unpleasant at you.
You can get mad, rage against the injustice* in life and hold onto bitterness, anger, resentment, etc.
Or, you can be one of the crazies. And goodness knows, there is enough krump in the adoption process to make anyone jaded (even the crazies like Bobby and Rhonda)...
As for me, I'm happy to be a crazy. I want to focus on what God has given me, and simply walk steadfastly though the trials of life, holding onto love, joy, peace, goodness, faith... and yes... even holding onto crazy, er, thankfullness. :-)
(1) Totally not a made up word - simply the proper spelling of TON (http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/tonnes) - welcome to Canada eh!
(2) Totally a made up word. Based loosely off CRUMP (which means "to explode heavily" (http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/crump)), except rooted in a metaphorical term for issues which seem to "explode heavily" into your life, if you want them or not.
* == There is definitely a time to rage against the injustices of this world - but it probably is going to be a time that you won't like, and for something which you don't want to do. :-)